A Cajun song…

LOUISIANA HOME

 

Lipstick on my collar

Was passed out on the couch

I snuck out through the kitchen

Yeah, I’m finally getting out

 

That crazy little voodoo queen

Done cast a spell on me

Whiskey shot and Hurricane

Then down to Bourbon Street

 

Mississippi blues man

Bayou Cajun girl

Alligator sings his song

In his swampy world

Mullet jumping in the air

Crawdads diggin’ holes

Dolls with pins stuck in their hair

Lousiana home

 

Walk the streets for money

Looking for a fix

Countin’ cards in Metairie

Livin’ in the sticks

 

Mosquito’s are our family

We feed our blood for lunch

Dice are crappin’ out again

Rollin’ on a hunch

 

Mississippi blues man

Bayou Cajun girl

Alligator sings his song

In his swampy world

Mullet jumping in the air

Crawdads diggin’ holes

Dolls with pins stuck in their hair

Lousiana home

 

Dreamin’ ‘bout my grandpa

Soft shelled crabs by night

Shrimp it fills the gumbo pot

A good old southern life

 

When the winds bring down the rain

Old Cyprus knees exposed

Giggin’ frogs and grabbin’ cats

There is no place like home

 

Mississippi blues man

Bayou Cajun girl

Alligator sings his song

In his swampy world

Mullet jumping in the air

Crawdads diggin’ holes

Dolls with pins stuck in their hair

Lousiana home

Yeah, dolls with pins stuck in their hair

Lousiana home

Of great loss… a poem

THE WELL RUNS DRY

 

From whence come the tears when the well runs dry

I shiver in the loneliness born

Tossed here and there like a ship on high seas

My hope and my heart have been torn

The void herein cannot be dispelled

Much deeper the chasm, abyss

Bound to this world full of darkened decline

Hell must be something like this

For centuries, it seems I’ve been drowning in grief

Though mortal and merely am I

The suffering of loss missing hands on the clock

Tell my truth, tell my story, tell my time

Deteriorating automaton aimlessly afoot

Desperation, bumping off walls

Emptiness filling overflowing my cup

Joyful house once a home emptied halls

Loss is a journey for one and for all

A season of weeping and moans

Prayers to a God whom I once relied

Emptiness now missing soul

Cruelty truly has a companion

To whip and to slash and to tear

Into my very existence of being

Exposing my burdens so bare

Raw from the anguish bleeding with torment

Custody of my sanity lost

Surely the devil himself is behind this

Once hallowed grounds holocaust

Shaking my fists exposing incisors

Growling with guttural pain

Nothing so sacred that I wouldn’t offer

If only to hold him again

But now ‘tis the time for final goodbyes

These bloodshot, blurred eyes barely see

Cast into wind and carried away

This burden of sorrow within me

A very short story…

SHADOWS

 

What is this hovering just below my consciousness and just above my subconscious?  A feeling of dread and enlightenment at the same time!  Does this even make sense to a firm and stable mind?  Struggle as I may to unmask… this burden still maintains its mystery.  Benevolence or malevolence… Which has the fortitude to hold on long enough and keep me in suspense?  Lightness and darkness blur the field of view.  As if there is a presence I cannot quite see but rather I can feel its prevalent influence and it draws me in so deep.  Closer the examination… of what?  It still eludes my every effort even as I make my verbal appeal.  “Reveal yourself to me whoever or whatever you are!”  Alas, it is to no end.  Why am I being tortured?  Is this torture or simply the frustration of man in the world?

Trickster!  Provocateur!  Beelzebub? Tempter of unreason and suspicion as perhaps here lies the spirit of my discourse in sanity.  Where is the mettle of my heart and soul to combat the illusions being played upon my very being?  Am I such a mouse that I scurry for shelter out of pure apathetic fear?  Reincarnate terror grips me like an eagle whose razor talons dig deeper and deeper into my perception as if in a nightmare become real from my childhood settling upon me in a cold sweat.  But what of that?  What of my perception?  Is it but a moment in time lost to me or will this be my undoing?

Oh pray…pray to the Father for release from that which has embraced and soiled my immanence!  Hear me I beckon aloud, “Hear me….”  Wait!  Wait!  Wait for that which may come now or in a time yet to be convened.  Is this a calamity in which I am to vacillate again and again while my hopes and dreams turn into udder despair?  No!  I refuse to give up or to give in to this monster growing inside me!  For I will take a stand and maintain the solace of my ascendants.  For all the powers in the world can turn against me and I will stand!

 

Somewhere below in the shadows of wispy branches of a weeping willow on a sunlit day an old man struggles in his sleep.  Indeed, he is fighting demons.

Life, time slip away fast… a song

LIVING IN THE YESTERDAYS

 

Thinking back

To a time when all the world was right before me

It didn’t bore me

Oh, thinking back

To a time when everybody knew my name

We played the game

 

Then suddenly right in my way this thing that they call life

All the time I had to play has gone and passed me by

Living in the yesterdays is easier it seems

Living all the memories living in my dreams

 

Here am I

Stuck here in the office full of walls

What’s the cause

Oh, here am I

Trying to get through another day

Another way

Where is the hope

Of my finding what my parents found before me

How they adore me

Where is the hope

Of me ever finding just that kind of love

I look above

Then suddenly right in my way this thing that they call life

All the time I had to play has gone and passed me by

Living in the yesterdays is easier it seems

Living all the memories living in my dreams

 

My little one

You are the answer to all of my prayers

And Teddy Bears

Oh, little one

I promise I will love you through it all

You are so small

 

But suddenly right in your way will be this thing called life

All the time you have to play will quickly pass you by

Living in the yesterdays you flash right through your teens

Living in your memories living in your dreams

Living in your memories living in your dreams

 

(Interlude)

 

Then suddenly right in my way this thing that they call life

All the time I had to play has gone and passed me by

Living in the yesterdays is easier it seems

Living all the memories living in my dreams

Then suddenly right in my way this thing that they call life

All the time I had to play has gone and passed me by

Living in the yesterdays is easier it seems

Living all the memories living in my dreams

Yeah, reliving all my memories reliving all my dreams

Love, life, faith… a song

I CRIED TODAY

Hey honey… it’s me

And I need to share something with you

I cried today you see

And there was nothing I could do

 

That little son of ours and daughter too

Tried to tell me a little joke

But neither could quite get it out their mouths

Without laughing and snorting

Whenever they spoke

 

And before I knew it

I was laughing too

And pretty dang hard I guess

Cause tears were running down my cheeks

Watching these two try to do their best

 

Yeah baby I cried today

And it was all about tears of joy

I cried today

Along with our baby girl and boy

And if you’d been here

You’d been crying too

Of that there’s no mistake

Yeah, I cried today

At the joy that those two make

 

I know I cried today

I can’t believe she’s all grown up

I had to give her away

To the man that will fill her cup

 

And I know it wasn’t manly

For me to shed those tears

But she’ll always be my baby girl

For years and years and years

 

Yeah baby I cried today

And it was all about tears of joy

I cried today

As I gave her to that boy

And you were sitting there

And you were crying too

What a picture that we made

We cried today

Our baby girl has gone away

 

Hey honey I cried today

Just like the day before

And I prayed and prayed

That this wouldn’t be the final door

 

You had fought so hard

To stay with us

But the Lord had other plans

I cried today

Sobbing in both these hands

 

Now I know you’re up in heaven

Probably thinking what a sight

With me down here kneeling by your grave

And knowing how hard I tried

 

But the tears just keep on coming

I can’t seem to hold them back

I’ll love you forever and ever

And that’s a fact that’s just a fact

 

Yeah honey I cried today

And it was tears about my loss

Yeah, I cried today

But you’re with the man who bore the cross

And I know that one day I’ll shed tears of joy

When I get to see you again

Yeah baby I cried today

You were always my best friend

 

(Talk)

Hey honey… It’s me

And I need to share something with you

Aspirations… a song

GOD’S LITTLE MYSTERIES

 

If I lay down on the riverbank

Where the waters run so deep

If I close my eyes and pray to God

My soul forever keep

 

If a rainbow with its gentle touch

Should find me here this way

Would it take me up so high above

On angel’s wings and say

 

You have been a good life

To lead your flocks upon the earth

And though you may not realize

It’s a love you’ve shared since birth

Another will pick up your pride

A torch still burning bright

Now that you are on the other side

Heaven grants eternal life

And…you…will…always…be…….

One of God’s little mysteries……

 

I wake and find I’m trembling

From the rush of Heaven’s weight

Wondering if I really fit the mold

To share the good Lord’s grace

 

Could it be a sign within the dream

That came to me in sleep

Instructions from the yet unseen

Promises to keep

And angels say……

 

You have been a good life

To lead your flocks upon the earth

And though you may not realize

It’s a love you gave since birth

Another will pick up your pride

A torch still burning bright

Now that you are on the other side

Heaven grants eternal life

And…you…will…always…be…….

One of God’s little mysteries……

 

I cry as I am not so worthy

To carry such as this

But who am I to question

The… answer’s… always… His……

You have been a good life

To lead your flocks upon the earth

And though you may not realize

It’s a love you gave since birth

Another will pick up your pride

A torch still burning bright

Now that you are on the other side

Heaven grants eternal life

And…you…will…always…be…….

One of God’s little mysteries……

Yes…you…will…always…be…….

One of God’s little mysteries……

Evil is sneaky… a darker side poem

THE TREE

Take just one bite and you will see.

There is so much more to life that you can be.

Now take another and give to your mate.

You know of love…now know of hate.

For in this garden there’s so much more.

He tells you it’s enough to keep you happy, but I say it’s a bore.

Run to the bushes… here He comes.

Hide yourselves…hide your nakedness…hide your knowledge…now it’s done!

He wanted you all to Himself.

He didn’t want you to know of other things but to put you on His shelf.

Beyond this garden…beyond the springs.

You will discover what He was hiding while He made you do His things.

Maybe you will miss no modesty…maybe you will miss the light.

But think of all the joy you’ll find knowing what you know is right.

For I was once in favor of the One you held on high.

But now that has all ended…for you too looked me in the eye.

For I was the temptation, no, the Tempter, that was me.

A serpent sent to test the two who have now fallen from The Tree.